Showing posts with label emerging. Show all posts
Showing posts with label emerging. Show all posts

Saturday, 12 December 2015

Reflections in the receding water

This is a bit of writing in the wake of the Chennai floods, a string of thoughts as and when they came to my head. The piece is written in two parts, the first after a day out in the city helping with distribution efforts and the second written today after we wrapped up relief operations.

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My Chennai flood experience started a little different. It was one of luxury, of prosperity, of excess. Two hours after young boys battled each other to grab a packet of biscuits from my hands, I ate hot food and drank hot chocolate milk at my college mess. Why me? Because I'm lucky to have access to a campus that's in the spotlight, a campus that convinced all the vendors to operate on credit, a campus where the mess workers waded through waist deep water surrounding their own homes to cook for us because, in their words, "naange illena ungalukku pasikkum." (If we don’t come, you will all be hungry.)

But my Chennai flood experience is also one of need, of desperation, of want. It's one of women as old as my grandmother begging for food from my fast depleting bag, of young boys discussing how many mouths a Rs 5 biscuit packet can feed, of the scores of eyes laying sight on food for the first time in days. It's the experience of giving and getting instructions to barricade our buses and close the windows to stop people from climbing onto the bus as they try to grab food, of people flocking the minute they see what looks like relief supplies.

My Chennai flood experience was one of gratitude and oneness. Of volunteers coming together and spending hours collecting, sorting, loading and distributing without stopping to ask for names. Of the IITM team realising we don't have a master list of everyone who worked to thank later on because no one waited to take pictures or fill a roll call. Of locals who tell us "Inge oru vellai saapadu irukku-nge, neenge aduthe edathukku ponge." (We have our next meal here, do go on to the next place.) Of citizens sharing contact details on public forums if that means access to more bread loaves or medicines. Of us thanking the stranded for magically procuring coffee while they thank us for turning up. Of running out of paracetamol in the middle of a medical camp only to have a stranger offer to go shopping and return with a box full.

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I’ve seen Bhanu Akka every day for the last five years, as she sits patiently in the lobby of our hostel, in charge of our security. Every day for the last week, she has told us stories of her house and her neighbours, as they struggle to put their lives back together after floods ravaged the city. She told us stories of another Akka whose house was washed away but who was ”lucky” enough to save her ration card, which she proceeded to dry on a dosai kallu. She told us of people whose utensils were blackened by sludge, whose choice lay between washing them thin or the unaffordable solution of replacing them all. There were stories of snakes in the stagnant water of bedrooms, people lying on the bed anyway for want of somewhere else to go. There were tales of traffic jams caused on the only half of the road that was usable because people began spilling onto the streets to escape from the cramped, unhygienic environments of shelter halls. The auto driver who dropped me home late last night thanked God for his first floor house, telling me how the people on the ground floor were flooded and those on the second were dealing with leaking roofs and walls. The beginning of every conversation in Chennai today has become ‘how is your home?’

Behind every aching muscle in my body today, there is a story. The stories from Anankaputhur and Vyasarpadi, Moggapair and Iyyapanthangal, Velachery and Taramani. The stories of people in neighbourhoods I barely knew existed till recently. The stories of the woman as old as my Paati who begged me to give her a sari she could use. Or the Anna who ran behind our bus as we pulled away after distribution. Or the Akka who bent down close to thank me for distributing sanitary pads, saying only we understood her struggles. Or even the woman who stood by me as I assisted in a medical camp, warning me when the time came to stop. “People are coming back for seconds, ma,” she told me. “Go give this to people who need it more.”

Never before have I seen this kind of longing. More often than once, I have been shaken by men and women much older than me thanking us for our work, their eyes glowing at the sight of food and medicines. Even in the ruckus of our “control room”/collection centre, as we joked of having stocks to last for years, there was a tinge of unease in our voices, speaking volumes of the roads just outside our gates. No matter how much we joked and collected and segregated, all this would disappear in minutes outside, we knew.

This last week and all the hours in it have taught all of us many things. It taught us the value of bread and water, of dry roads and cloudless skies. It taught us to save every drop, switch off every extra light, huddle in one room to optimize candle light. It taught us that good faith and trust can still drive mass movements, a lesson reinforced every time supplies traded hands with no questions asked. It taught us that our city, known for orthodoxy and conservatism often spoken of in the same breath as boredom, can rally together when the going gets tough and not give up. It taught us that in times of need, hierarchies are forgotten memories as professors checked with student coordinators to volunteer in the efforts and children lugged many kilograms of rice to unload/reload. It taught us to share information, resources and encouragement. It taught us to stick together and come out stronger.

1 week. A dozen core members. Around 25 neighbourhoods. Hundreds of volunteers. Many thousands of kilograms of supplies.

Doing our bit to reclaim home.

Saturday, 27 June 2015

The idle musings of an almost adult

Think, everyone told me. Think and it will come to you. Think and it will dawn upon you. Just think and the world’s answers will appear in a heartbeat and clarity will come giftwrapped in a nice little box miraculously left behind by the Tooth Fairy one Tuesday morning. All you need to do is think.

I’ve thought on planes and trains, buses and bikes. I’ve thought while I was meant to be thinking and much more when I wasn’t. I’ve stared just to the right of my professor’s face during class and doodled pointlessly in the corner of my notebook. I’ve made more To Do lists than anything I’ve ever done and then stooped from putting ‘Figure it out’ to ‘Shower’, in an effort to check something off. You can’t say I didn’t try.

When it all fell apart all around me and all the same advice kept pouring in, I turned to clichés. I took a long, hot shower. And I thought some more. Or atleast I tried.

What do I write my paper on? And once that is done, what do I do my thesis on? And once that is done, what do I do next? Where do I work? Do I let go of a great job just to leave home? Do I accept another great job even if the cash isn’t great? What qualifies as good enough and how do you identify a challenge? When you can’t differentiate the road less travelled from the well trodden path, how do you choose to be conformist or rebellious? And how is it that the more I think, the more questions seem to need thinking about?


This thinking thing is a lie, a web designed to keep you in a never-ending loop. You think you get more questions, you kid yourself into thinking you can answer them all. For now, I’m going to take a break. The paper may happen, or not. Reading all day is fun in itself. The thesis will definitely happen. On what, well, epiphany shall strike before graduation some time. As for a job, I’m only almost adult for now. Please don’t burst my bubble?

Wednesday, 19 December 2012

Emerging, reappearing!

Yes, yes, yes. I am back. And yes, it is practically three months since I was last here.
Don't tell me I didn't warn you. Blogging is a rather severe test of my internal motivation and often, I find myself flailing.

No, don't get me wrong. The blog was on my mind... just that it was really far back, and rather deeply buried as well. Oops.

A few minutes ago, a friend asked me for the link to my blog, confidently assuming I had one. Hopefully this gets published before he checks it out and sees a timestamp on September 27th! :P

Much has been happening and much can be written about. There are more Pensive posts (yes, lots of thinking happening) and definitely more Smiley posts.

I shall be back with more jabbering. Soon.

PS - Thank you, Rohit for getting me to come back :)