Saturday 21 June 2014

The Stanford Saga

After a twenty day hiatus, I am back. This time, it is only a four paragraph bit so fear not. A couple of days ago, I logged on to my facebook to see that someone had shared the Stanford commencement speech by Bill and Melinda Gates and it was on my newsfeed. So I sat and watched it, heard the power couple speak of the power of empathy and ambition. And then I watched bits of the actual commencement itself and the faces of those who had just been awarded their degrees. And then I remembered visiting the campus on a trip to the USA recently, and the sense of awe that filled me as I walked around the place. And then, I wrote.

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As the last notes of the trumpet drifted through the air, as frivolous soap bubbles wafted by, as the fluttering of flag after flag blotted out the midday sun, as camera flashes caught the eye and a stranger’s cap fell at the feet, as announcements were made and not heeded, as speeches were given and grabbed at, as degrees were awarded and congratulations exchanged, a moment came to pass.

The buildings had been witness to a transformation. The corridors had held her hand as she cried. The dorm room had egged her on to try that first dress, experiment with her hair, grow into her own person. The mirrors, shadowed with doubt and insecurity as she first peered into them, cleared to reveal a young woman filled with ambition and desire. Before anyone could say ‘Stanford’, there was a black gown on her and the air was filled with a voice. “May the graduates from the School of Humanities and Sciences please be seated” her dean said. And that was all. It was over.

Many days later, she saw the commencement on YouTube. There she was, sharing a ruckus last laugh with classmates, revelling in those last few minutes of studenthood; that safety net that opened up doors where none were seen, allowing witness to the outside world without the anguish of dirty hands. How many people around the world would see this, she wondered. And how many would think of the stories under those gowns, hidden in the silences between those laughs? How many would know of loans that needed repayment, jobs that needed hunting, dreams that needed fulfilling? How many would guess at the history of a tough home, filled with alcohol and abuse? How many would see the signs of happiness, of belief in fairy godmothers and angels? How many would see past the graduates into the humans?


As the last notes of the trumpet drifted through the air and the last of the flags swept past her, just as the last of the students trooped out into the open to taste newfound adulthood and success, she sent out a silent prayer to the people of the world; to the girl in India wishing her way to Stanford, the boy in the Philippines questioning the tradition of ceremony, at the girl in Kentucky wondering if she is Ivy material and the boy in Venezuela who hadn’t yet been bitten by the dream. “May Imagination inspire you, may Injustice trouble you, may Hope comfort you, may good friends nourish you. May you live your dream.”

Sunday 1 June 2014

I want to be Superlady.

Over the last few years, I seem to have developed quite a soft spot for the cause of education. So when I was interning in Ladakh and was desperate for something to read, I was drawn to this book intriguingly titled 'Three Cups of Tea - One Man's Extraordinary Journey to Promote Peace... One School at a Time'. Bogged down by the thought of having to lug what was fast becoming a mini library around the mountains myself, I let it go but when I spotted a copy in a second hand book fair in Chennai, I didn't as much as read the cover before picking it up.

While I know the book has been at the centre of quite some controversy ('Three Cups of Deceit' is a 22,000 word expose on the book), it acted as a good source of motivation to write. If Mortenson has done everything that he has claimed, brilliant. If he hasn't, it could just be seen as fictionalized motivation for the rest of us.

Here is a piece that was deeply inspired by one of the side stories in the book. The story of this girl gripped me, made me wonder where she is today. All factual inconsistencies in this piece are my own and all the background, history, context provided are grace a authors.

Unsurprisingly, it is a tad long but bear with me.

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Hiding behind a boulder almost as large as her, eleven-year-old Aliya was stunned. Men, old and young alike, scurried past her with planks of wood and an eclectic assortment of other construction tools, swarming like starved ants to a drop of honey towards the medium sized piece of land that had been cleared for this purpose. In the corner, a ledger in his hand and a look of sheer grit and concentration writ large on his face, stood a hulking foreigner, his blonde haired tall stature striking a sharp contrast against the diminutive mountain people he was working with. His size eleven feet were swamped in the dust, grit and grime that came from working this high up the mountains, exposed to the sheer brunt of Nature. He wore a traditional salwar kameez, the loose robes that had been long associated with their side of the world, though not often with the men and most surprising of all, he seemed at home.

As she peeked from behind her vantage point, she saw her grandfather, the village headman respected by all and silently feared by most, go up and embrace this foreigner with as much love as his short arms would allow. Khan dada did not seem to mind this Amreekan’s bleached hair and skin. He did not seem to notice how his feet were twice as big as his own, or he seemed twice as tall as even the biggest uncle. Instead, her grandfather was murmuring his thanks to the higher powers for showing them a way, for offering them a six-foot solution on a platter when they had been let down by everyone else.

Nestled in the depths of the mountains, Aliya did not know what the world thought of her. In fact, she did not know of most of the world to begin with, her eyes judiciously widening at every mention of a trip “downside”, when some of the more privileged or adventurous men went in search of growth or grain. Her world was here, between the apricot trees and loose boulders, revolving around making cha with her grandmother and playing with the younger children.

Fatima dadi was a force to contend with of her own, having the uncanny audacity to pull at dada’s beard and tease him, surpassing boundaries many women of her age held sacrosanct. She had allowed the White Man into her kitchen, allowed him to meddle with her utensils, allowed him not only into her house but into her home. Now she told everyone who cared to listen that she had an Amreekan son, one who brought her miscellaneous goodies from time to time, but one who was, more importantly, on his way to changing the way their forgettable hamlet had lived for years.

Little Aliya never understood this part. She never quite knew what dadi meant when she spoke of ‘change’ and ‘miracle’ but she always loved hearing the stories. She sat in rapture at dadi’s feet as she told stories of sahib and how he first came to them, exhausted and at the verge of collapse after a failed mountaineering trip. She giggled every time she heard how everyone was intrigued by this hulking man shivering under her dead mother’s blanket, how dadi had put all their precious sugar into this man’s cha as a token of welcome. She listened, stunned, as dadi’s eyes glistened with thanks and memory as she told the tale of how sahib had crossed the river that first time, acting on his promise to come back, to change their lives forever. “He is a blessing. He really is,” dadi would say each time she ended wiping the moisture from her eyes with the back of a wrinkled but steady hand; and Aliya would nod in silent agreement, not entirely sure what she was agreeing to but soaking in the prosperity and possibility that always seemed to cloak anything to do with sahib.

Hiding behind the sheer mass of rock, Aliya shyly kept her eye trained on this man who had come to mean so much to her people. His size was countered by the kindness in his eyes, she decided. And those giant feet were neutralized by the kind pat he gave every child who mustered the courage to walk past him. He was okay, she decided. More than okay. As the men dug trenches and lay stones and the first signs of a building begin to materialize Aliya plucked up the nerve to emerge from behind her hide out and sidle up to dada and the big man. She stood there, clutching to the end of his salwar, hoping that some of her grandfather’s strength would flow into her own self. She stole glances up at this man, sometimes needing to peer against the glare of the brutal Himalayan sun, and as time flew by, she learnt to let go of dada’s coattails.

Aliya had dreams; dreams she wasn’t sure she should speak too loudly about. After all, the women of her family had worked all their lives and as the headman’s granddaughter, she was expected to bring pride to her family’s name. She had never known her mother and the deep red blanket that sahib now used had long stopped smelling of her. For as long as Aliya could remember, she had looked up to Fatima, her gutsy grandmother whose spirit seemed misplaced in this quaint Himalayan village. But beyond this all, Aliya dreamed. She dreamt of sitting in front of a page, tracing her finger along the words as the knowledge entered her mind. She dreamt of going “downside” and tracing her finger through some more. She dreamt of going where no village girl had. With only nine years to her name, she wasn’t sure where exactly this was, but something told her sahib  could help her find out.

Years after the child had crawled out from behind the rock, Aliya stood in front of the closed doors that separated her from sahib and all the village elders. At seventeen, she had milked the local school for all it had to offer and was itching to make that much awaited trip downside. She drew in a deep breath, adjusted her maroon headscarf and swung the doors open. Without allowing herself to get intimidated by the elders, she made a beeline for the man who had singlehandedly changed her life. “I want to begin my medical training,” she announced. In the next few minutes, by sheer force of willpower, she walked away with the twenty thousand rupees she needed for her fees. She couldn’t see the look of contentment that shone in sahib’s eyes.

With the mountains as  her guardians and medical books as her companions, Aliya embarked on her newest journey to become the first woman from the village to be educated, travel downside, and be educated some more. And then one day, sahib visited. With the quiet self assurance that echoed Fatima’s sure handed training, she brew her mentor a glass of tea; the teabag concoction’s similarity to her dadi’s cha limited to the plain adoration with which it was served. She sat by him while he and her father looked through her work, each of the older men glowing with unmasked pride at the young girl who had come to represent everything they stood for. As the tea cups emptied and only the dregs remained, Aliya stared placidly out of the window, thinking back to the time behind the rock when something told her this man would show her the way.

Sahib, I want to head a hospital,” she said, her voice barely above a whisper, filled with unquestionable determination but flecked with incredulity, as if the girl herself couldn’t believe how much her dreams had grown. “Yes, I want to be Superlady.”

Deep in the most treacherous mountains known to man, nestled in a village that wouldn’t feature on most maps, Aliya looked out of her window to see the world. She would no longer hide behind the mountains. She would move them. There, in the small, pretty figure of the village’s first successful girl, a flame had been lit, a fire had been kindled.